Chapter Four: Waiting No More!

Chapter Four

My rescue dog, Izzy, and I are “kept” women this week! Stephen is attending a business conference, and I decided to play the supporting role by taking off work and tagging along to spend my days lounging and meditating. We’ve been swimming and walking and stretching and eating and writing and deciding. I’ve decided to resign from bureaucracy upon my return to the office next week, offering a four week notice. For my well-being, I cannot put it off any longer. I am still not pregnant, and I am still unfulfilled by my work. So this week, I wrote my resignation letter and have agreed to several Health Coaching engagements to get me started on another one of my passions. The big job of the week is self-care…I need to heal from delaying a change that needed to be made long ago.

So here’s what I’ve learned. I am a fantastic mother. When I am not in the act of mothering Eva, I have myself to nurture! On that note I took myself and Izzy on a barefoot walk all over the resort grounds. I got in the dirt and allowed child-like exploration of nature. I got the hell off the path. When I was quite ready, I came back to our room and lovingly washed my grubby feet in the sink. This small act of allowing and caring for my body was healing in a magical way.  Turns out, I can single-task motherhood no matter what or who is receiving the mothering care. 

Next up, the full transition to singletasking motherhood - pregnant or not! Eva is gracefully and swiftly entering adolescence. I understand from the sages in my life that teens need our undivided attention as much as toddlers. That means she's a ready-made practice opportunity for my transition from multi-tasking office queen to singletasking super mom!